Diet back on track - now let's work on exercise

After a rough couple of days, I am fully back on program today. I got up this morning to a very unkind scale and decided, enough is enough. So I had a mostly egg white omelet with low fat cheddar, some canteloupe and a non-fat latte for breakfast. A salad with chickpeas and salmon and 1oz of a yummy salad dressing for lunch. A pear and a yogurt for snacks and am planning a stir-fry for dinner that will be heavy on the veggies and not quite so heavy on the chicken and rice. I have also learned through this process that the sauce on the stir-fry can be a diet killer (sugar, sugar and more sugar) so I will go light on that as well.
Hubby and I have gone for walks the last two nights and I plan to do that tonight as well. Tomorrow morning is my planned workout. I still need to figure out a way to build that into my week. I am still trying to figure out how to do that.
I see my Cardiologist for my annual consult at the end of June and would like to be at the same weight I was at last year, so I need to lose a little less than 25lbs to get there.(It has been a rough year weight wise). So 2lbs a week would get me there, I just need to stay on plan and I can do it. If I kick up the exercise, it would be that much easier. I just need to do it. I just need to do it. How many times can I say that until I just do it. I really struggle with that.
I will start this today by changing my evening walk to a more intense workout and then do cardio both days this weekend. They (whoever they are) say that if you live a habit long enough it becomes a habit. I think maybe my exercise issue is that I never set a schedule that I keep to no matter what. I am very good at meeting commitments that I have to others but not so good about commitments to me. So I will work on making exercise a commitment I make to myself.
This for me is the hardest part, not because I don't respect myself or think I am worth it. (Although some would argue if I allowed myself to weigh this much then what kind of respect can I have for myself - I disagree but will leave that for another post)No for me, this is hard because I hate exercise. I hate everything about it. I hate feeling sweaty and sticky when I do it, I hate the feeling of sweat that runs into my eyes. I hate that my boobs feel sticky and gross, I hate that I am sore the next day. I hate that my feet hurt. I hate that my hair gets stringy and then I need to wash it everday and then I get dandruff. I hate that my skin gets so dry when I shower that often that it cracks and bleeds. I hate it because it is hard and challenging and makes me tired and I HATE IT! Phew, okay, I got that out of my system. Now I just need to suck it up and do it. That is the plan for this week. Just do it. Make the appointment with myself and get it done. 30 minutes everyday. Watch Jeopardy while on the elliptical. How hard is that?
I will do this, I deserve it!